Blessed IN Defeat
Let's face the reality that in todays world defeat is not looked upon as being a good thing. Never has defeat been looked at as a good thing. Even in absolute triumph one can feel defeated by ones self. How can you have complete blessing in defeat? I have been contemplating many things throughout the past four months of my life. I have always relied upon myself to get through whatever it was that I needed to get through. However, I quickly came to the point in my life this past semester where I was completely defeated in spirit, and in mind. Quickly slipping into a dark abyss, I realized once and for all that I could no longer push my way through life in such a crude form. I had been feeling God tugging at every part of me for a long time now, and I would always continue to try to ignore these convictions. Living under self righteousness can be a very simple folly. However, climbing your way out of this deep darkness is no easy task. For a person who lives under self righteousness, trying to climb out of the hole of dispair is one of the hardest and trying things you will ever have to face. Only by surrendering your spirit to God, and to the help of those who live under Godly conviction, can you ever hope to make it out. This is what I have come to know and accept, and it has made every difference in my life. Complete surrender has proven to be the toughest thing I have yet to face because of the fear of feeling completely imprisoned as a result of it. However, since I have surrendered everything over to God I have felt completely liberated from everything that I was feeling before. The world has become a much more beautiful place and every minute seems so much more lovely. I am now building some of the greatest relationships I have ever known in my life, and these relationships are completely unselfish and completely glorifying to God. Through the recent relationships I have built, I have become so very blessed. Only through my greatest defeat could I have ever felt the great blessing I feel today.
posted by Eric @ 12:05 PM
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